Xan Holyoak




'I will write until not a single word remains in my soul...
Until every story in my heart has been told...
Until my mind's well of ideas is bone dry...
And even then I will write on because writing is not just something I do, but part of who I am.'

Kathy Jeffords


Hello and Welcome!


This website and blogging space began as a platform for me to document the creation of a dream.  A joint dream I shared with my now late husband, Tuck.  It was somewhere for me to establish my voice as a writer and share our conscious living journey towards sustainability and self-sufficiency.  That was 2014 and over the short years since, life has transformed and I now travel a path similar, yet so very different to the one described here

That link will direct you to my original About Page, which although still holds true and makes for the essence of who I am, also feels different to the direction this space is heading.

With utmost integrity, I now use my experience to inspire and support others to embrace their fears around grief, loss and emotional pain.  I am deeply committed and passionate about sharing my story, may it empower us all to overcome adversity through an open, honest and holistic healing approach.  As we redefine grief, we discover the beauty that lies within and gain the strength and awareness needed for our Human Experience


As a Writer, I focus on Natural Parenting, Life Experience and Conscious Living (including sustainability & self-sufficiency).

As a Photographer, I adore the Australian Landscape including bush, outback, flora and fauna.  I also shoot Documentary style portraiture and capture the imperfections found inside each moment.   My Lifestyle images, incorporate still-life and the occasional event, and allow me to revisit my days as a Stylist in the Film and Television industry. 


Behind the scenes, I continue to renovate our 1880's Adelaide Hills home, while creating and tending a sustainable, semi self-sufficient garden.  But above all else, I am a Mum to two incredible kids, a Single Parent, and a Woman living each day to the fullest.

I am delighted to have you visit and thank you for sharing in this space.  Collaborations are always such fun so please feel free to get in touch, I'd love to hear your ideas. 

Wishing you the most spectacular day!


Lots of LOVE,